the immature guy

never tht wud cm bak here. bt had to spill it smwhere therwise wud have eaten me up. hehehe..

after she left i tht that was end of it (blogging).

well actually i have tht 1 thing watsoever i write hwsoever crap it mite be . i ai'nt gonna delete it. bt let it be that way. btw wat was i here 4 ..

ok, yah i recall nw . a story abt a immature guy who still lives his life king size , smtimes kiddo , sm times uncle ;) n smtime ghonchu .. lolzzz

n rare times a man ..

but still dere r moments dat he goes thru n wishes dat would nt have happened. wishes to jump frm d cliff bt nvr has d guts to do dat . hands tied, limbs freezeed n tears refusing to come out (nt bcoz he doesnt want to cry bt they say it is a sign of imatuutrity) n he wishes to grw.

n why he wants this ...

job nah

mom dad nah

money nah

career nah

girl leaving nah

lonely nah

umm thn bcoz he has hurt smbdy whom he treats as a vry gud frnd. is that all..

actually hard to articulate wat i wish to say hw to say things. perhaps shud nt be writng this n that. bt promised 1 thing nt gng to delete a single feeling that i pen down .

smtimes i wont understand wat u say, wat u tell , would raise my hands n ask my doubts like a kid. just gimme a bit of time , bcoz ....

wont be writng more .. dont have the courage ..

just 1 last thing ... keep :)

breathe in breathe out

drink water

n smile :) just smile

keep in touch !!!

aaine mein kabhi dekho, aankho mein hume paoge
hath badha kar koshish karo, hume chu paoge
mujhse aap sath nibhane ki baat karte ho ,
tatol kar dekhoge zara meri sanso ko, to unme khud ko hi paoge ..

they say n i say ...

They say

I've been living for 23 years
I've been living for 283 months
I've been living for 1,230 weeks
I've been living for 8,612 days
I've been living for 206,699 hours
I've been living for 12,401,999 minutes
I've been living for 744,119,989 seconds
I've breathed more than 117,916,761 times!
I've blinked my eyes more than 124,991,761 times!
My heart has beaten more than 868,139,930 times

I say

mera dil sirf 1 bar dhadk jab usne meri taraf dekha ...
i dint blink wen she came in frnt of me
my breath stopped wen she talkd to me
i lived nly those seconds wen i tht abt her
i was alive nly those min wen she smiled 2wards me
i count nly dat hr wen she sat by me ..
my life nly dat 1 day wen we went out ...
nly those weeks wen she ran in my mind
n ....

bus aur kuch ni ...

wish to hear u ...

After a long time , u came back

1stly my heart beat rose and then , my heart sank

i thought i would hear your voice

and that would give me a reason to rejoice

gap of these 1 month 24 days

hurt me daily in 1024 ways

but wen u came today i felt some rays

rays of hope, rays of life

wish i knew nly 4 a few moments they wud survive...

never wud i regret that couldnt see or hear u,

bcoz i ll recall the moments wenever i was near u .

just wish i cud manage

i didnt tell a lie ,

i didnt hid nethng

bt mistake happnd

as i m a human being .

u came vrytime n made me 4gt

wateever u did was right

i nvr gave a 2nd tht

i usually went speechless

i felt short of words,

only perhaps bcoz ur swweet words

made me feel out of the world

bt d way u smiled , u laughed

u took my breath away ....

dedicated to my all old friends

Its been a while now,

Since we properly spoke,

And i know life gets in the way,

But this is beyond a joke.

We live totally different lives now,

Things have changed a lot,

We promised to keep in touch,

But i guess we both forgot.

We used to be so close,

But change tore us apart,

We drifted apart quickly,

And its ripping at my heart.

I understand its harder now,

Our lives are pretty full on,

But i also know that i need you,

And it sucks we havent spoken in so long.

I miss knowing youre there for me,

And i miss being there for you,

Friendships die all the time,

But ours i know we should re-new.

Cause we didnt have a fight,

And neither of us moved away.

But i guess i want you to know,

That i really, really miss you,

And sometimes i find myself wondering,

If you miss me too.

wo mili

kabhi kabhi aise hi mil jaya kijiye,

kahin bhi kaise bhi dikh jaya kijiye.

aapki khushi meri zindagi hai

mera jeevan hai ..

jine k liye aapse zyada nahi mangte ,

dil nahi de sakti to bus 1 bar muskura hi dijiye.

kabhi kabhi aise hi mil liya kijiye

mera dil kehta hai,

aap dil ki bahut achhi hai ;

mera dil kehta hai,

aap dil ki bahut achhi hai ;

buss mujh par ye ehsan kiya kijiye....

kabhi kabhi aise hi mil liya kijiye.

ek aapki hi chahat hai,

ek aapka hi nam hai ,

chahe kabhi is dil ki sargam ched lijiye

kuch zyada to nahi chaha bus yun hi

kabhi kabhi aise hi mil liya kijiye...

tarsata hun aapke dil mein thodi si jagah k liye,

thoda sa rakhne ki koshish to kijiye,

kabhi kabhi aise hi mil jaya kijiye. :)